Missing Half of Me

I've had a rough day emotionally. I think the prego hormones have kicked in FULL FORCE!! I cried probably 80% of the time that I was awake.

I really miss Troy. It's been really hard for me to have him gone. I hide it well usually and keep my head up and stay positive, but today was not one of those days.

Someone commented today that I had not been myself lately. I was thinking about that comment and agreed with that person, and started pondering on what about me was different (other than the obvious.) I then realized that I am truly missing half of myself. Troy being gone has made me realize how complete my life is with him in it. He truly makes me feel like a whole person, and him being gone is like part of me being away as well.

As sad and hard to bear as that has been, it has also made me so very grateful! It is such a fantastic realization to know that I am hopelessly in love with my husband. Of course, I have always known that I love him and care for him deeply, but have never had to experience not having him since we've been together. I am grateful to have found him! I am grateful that my Heavenly Father saw fit to put such an amazing, loving, special individual in my life to spend my eternities with. I miss Troy very much, but am so grateful for this opportunity to be able to realize how much he means to me! And how happy he makes me!

I am looking forward to having him home and for both of us to be better to one another. To cherish more fully those small sweet moments and the time that we are able to spend together. We both have talked alot about realigning our priorities and being away from one another has really put that into check.

I love my husband! He truly is my best friend and the best thing that has ever happened to me!

Funny Kid

I used the "boy's bathroom" earlier because the other was occupied. I never go back there because it really is only used by the boys and can be quite disgusting.

I was looking in the shower for a bar of soap to wash my hands (which disturbs me to know the boys don't have hand soap) and saw this creation in the shower. It made me laugh! Jacob says he got bored while taking a shower and made this out of soap and bobby pins.